Have a FABULOUS Christmas x

I've had such a lovely night with my family. My 4 year old niece was so excited and as I was helping her chop a carrot for Rudolph and get a glass of milk ready for father Christmas, I couldn't have thought of any better place to be. Sooo much better than getting drunk and waking up Christmas day with a hangover (what normally happens!).

So I'm lying here in my old bedroom, the one I shared with my ex for over 5 years, thinking how different my Xmases have become. A few years ago Id have been lying here cuddled up to a guy who I loved, spending Christmas together and just having a lovely day. How emotions can change your life so dramatically. Everyone thought I would have married him, I did at one point, but when I was sure I didn't love him anymore and he wasn't making me happy I'm glad I made the break when I did.

Irony took its toll though, because whereas I thought I'd be a much happier person, in the past year alone I don't think I've ever been as hurt by a "relationship" (bit of a strong word for it!) as I have before. Probably because I've led a sheltered life, or probably because I have always had a good track record of steering clear of losers. One of the two.

Anyhow, in recent months I've moved on from people who bring more stress and pain into my life than love. In the form of boys as well as friends. I feel like a weight has finally been lifted and I'm excited.

Sometimes we search for the perfect ending, but sometimes it's just not there to be found. And sooner or later we get to understand why...

So, it's Christmas day, I honestly wish you all a happy, healthy and most of all fabulous day today. And if there are people who you care about who may not know, tell them! That's what I'm going to do...

Goodnight y'all

It's all fabulous x