Well it’s Christmas Eve and I’m sitting here thinking where the heck has the last 12 months gone? Wasn’t it Christmas day like 6 weeks ago?
For some people Christmas isn’t a happy time as Clinton Cards would like us all to believe. There are people missing people, people who are sick or people who’s stressful lives don’t just stop being stressful. I get all that, but I also think that even for a small moment you have to forget your worries and embrace the actual meaning of what it’s all about. Spending time with the people you love and showing them how much you care. That’s what I am going to be doing. It’s not about presents, its not about “what he bought her and she bought him”, it’s about the thoughtful gestures between people who care about each other. The unexpected Christmas Day phone call, the card out the blue, the present which costs £5 but has been bought with thoughtfulness like no other.
I made a decision a while ago not to let anything ruin this Christmas for me, and I’m not backing down. I will admit, I have wasted such a huge part of this year caring for people who didn’t deserve it. I don’t regret it, because I’m a better person for it and bitterness is a self destructing emotion rather than a self fulfilling one. Eh and this is my 3rd single Christmas. But I’m used to it now. It’s so much easier shopping for presents when you’re single; it does have its bonuses. I’m glad I’m single this Christmas, I would much rather this than being in a relationship I wasn’t happy (all them years ago now) or worse still with a guy who cheated on me. I think I’m the lucky one this Christmas, I escaped both.
So, 2012 is all about change. I’m off travelling again, Dubai and then if you read my tweets, you will see I’ve been accepted onto a volunteering project in Africa...it starts at the end of January and as you can read in my previous blogs, something I’ve always wanted to do. I just have to make a decision and let them know, so I’m working on that one whilst I have some time off! Aside from missing my family, there is nothing stopping me.
So, instead of the many invites I’ve had to go out tonight, this Christmas Eve will be the first one in a very long time that I’m chilling out with a few special people, going back to my mums, climbing on the couch and having an early night. Why? Because, firstly I have a lot of thinking to do and decisions to make and secondly I’d rather be a million miles away from anyone in 2011 that I want to forget, than seeing any of them in a pub the night before Christmas!
So, I really hope you all have a wonderful Christmas Day.
As Coco Chanel said herself, a girl should be two things: classy and fabulous. So make sure your both!
It’s all fabulous x
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